Shopping

Shopping with my dad was always fast as Hell. I almost never got cothes that fit or I liked. I had less then 10min to decide and 5 minutes to try it on. If I picked something that I liked I almost always had to pick it even if it didn't fit right. It was always a pain. I wish my dad would have took me shopping the right way. I think he was just worried about spending money. He know he would over spend. So the faster I shoped the faster he wouldn't have to spend that much.

Til this day I have problems shopping with anyone. I'm still getting used to having to spend money where money needes to be spent. I however get arressive and try to get food shopping done as fast as I can just to get it over with. I still get panic attacts at the checkout. even when its money that was given to me by the state.Last night I had a drum about me shopping at a clothing store. I was looking for a shirt that I found in the wrong size. It still hants me. Hopfully this will go away once I done going through EMDR.