Shitty ass mother fucking weekend.

Shitty. That's basically all I can say about this weekend. My hyper manic mood has gone down the toilet and now i am in a deep depressive state. I just want to die. I don't give a flying fuck about anything. I am filled with tears but am trying to hold them in, which just makes me more emotionally full. That on top of the extra supplements that have been added, i'm just in pain. Physical and emotional. I odn't want to be here today. I just want to curl up in a ball, sit in a corner, and cry all day. I don't want to have anything to do with anyone or anything. I hate this shit. It fucking sucks ass.
I have completed all meals, despite the pain. I want to runaway from myself. I want to hide. I want to disappear. 
I'm not giving up...I just want to disappear.
I wrote a lot more last night on my home computer which I can post later.
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