shit. fuck. ahh
shit. fuck. that describes my past few days.
thursday night and friday night were HORRIBLE. Major anxiety attacks. Could not control myself. Cut Friday night. Had major nightmares about past sexual partners. Someone found out something that I have been hiding forever....and she is the only one who knows. Afraid to bring it up to Joanna. NO ONE KNOWS!
head is spinning out of control. for the first time every joanna acctually suggessted for me to perhaps take 1/2 of my anxiety meds. she doesn't like relying on meds, and stated that again, but i think she could easily see how horrible i was with everything and suggessted. i hadn't taken it in 3 months. i took it...it worked a little...so i took the other half...it worked a little..
Today was okay....i guess.
not doing well at all. today was better. I was very busy at work so I was in a good mood.
came up with lists of things to do in Florida and made a schedule for when we are down there.
Working Tu/Wed/Th/Fr/Sat this week- all 8 hr shifts. dog walks everyday. so I am working nonstop until I leave Tuesday 12/27.
Today is day number 41 working in a row between all my jobs....by the time i leave for FL i will have worked 51 days in a row! Hot damn go me!!!
thursday night and friday night were HORRIBLE. Major anxiety attacks. Could not control myself. Cut Friday night. Had major nightmares about past sexual partners. Someone found out something that I have been hiding forever....and she is the only one who knows. Afraid to bring it up to Joanna. NO ONE KNOWS!
head is spinning out of control. for the first time every joanna acctually suggessted for me to perhaps take 1/2 of my anxiety meds. she doesn't like relying on meds, and stated that again, but i think she could easily see how horrible i was with everything and suggessted. i hadn't taken it in 3 months. i took it...it worked a little...so i took the other half...it worked a little..
Today was okay....i guess.
not doing well at all. today was better. I was very busy at work so I was in a good mood.
came up with lists of things to do in Florida and made a schedule for when we are down there.
Working Tu/Wed/Th/Fr/Sat this week- all 8 hr shifts. dog walks everyday. so I am working nonstop until I leave Tuesday 12/27.
Today is day number 41 working in a row between all my jobs....by the time i leave for FL i will have worked 51 days in a row! Hot damn go me!!!
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As hard as it might seem I think it\'s time to share that secret that is now out with Joanna and discuss it. It obviously shook you up so much that you had a breakdown and cut. Not good. And do it before Joanna goes on vacation. Put away the shame and secrecy - they will destroy you.