I`m just laing in bed til I`m dead. It sure takes along time. Ive been doing it for 18 years. I have tried 20 seaquil.20 klonapin and 15 beers. I just passed out and wole up 2 days later,
Milail
I thought we had became friends. will???
I thank God for the strength that He gives me to endure depression and effects of depression and to make the best of each and every day. i even thank God that am able to get up and dress myself and feed myself w/o wearing diapers ---again. Am also thankful for our friendship.
I understand your fus\'trait\'ion but do count all the blessing that God has give in your life and start with being given the strength to understand and endure and haveing a roof over your head w street address and being able to obtain medical care and from what i have gather you have tv thats not in a pawn shop and you have option to eat on reg bases and your brother even though he owes you bk rent cares about you and you dont actually live compeletly solo - which is nice.
I would never cause my family and friends to be tramatized and/are thier hearts broken- that may also effects thier own familys and thier lives by something as like you write about. i wouldnt want anyone to half to see physco doctor and be on physc meds because of such.
I will try to understand your longing to be as you once where. I too temporary got stuck in wanting my health and life bk as the way it use to be but then as like you will
come to realize and overcome as i came to realize yesteryears are gone and my illness is just a part of my
life and this is my life now and i make the best of each and every day, even when i dont have physical entergy to complete everything on my daily schedule list.
Heaven and standing beside God is my distination and it is my dermenation that I will do so as God has instructed us to live our lives on earth.
Na deep in your heart, you do not wish to do as you have writen. i feel that you are stuck as i was and either you have not recieve life tools to move forward in your recovery so that you too can enjoy living life and nature beauty or you have now recieved 2nd set of tools from your physco doctor and/are thyp. Life tools to move forward- it is a process.
Do you go to state funded mental healthy center as in center that contains social workers and doctors and where a person is asigned a physco doctor and person visit doctor offc inside mental health center that is actually doctor offc\'s and is not a houseing are mental facility nor soup kitchen that also provides over night houseing - hum? will do you have physco doctor who you can visit on fairly reg bases?
just re read the sentance that follows the 18 beer in your journal. woo wee hope you didnt wet the bed,lol not that i have,lol, nor wet your pants as you reached the tolit,lol, not that i have,lol, dont get up to fast after cup of coff--ee, are you\'ll be blowing smoke,lol
my time release med has kicked bk in so off to recliner i go,my Buddy right
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Milail
I thought we had became friends. will???
I thank God for the strength that He gives me to endure depression and effects of depression and to make the best of each and every day. i even thank God that am able to get up and dress myself and feed myself w/o wearing diapers ---again. Am also thankful for our friendship.
I understand your fus\'trait\'ion but do count all the blessing that God has give in your life and start with being given the strength to understand and endure and haveing a roof over your head w street address and being able to obtain medical care and from what i have gather you have tv thats not in a pawn shop and you have option to eat on reg bases and your brother even though he owes you bk rent cares about you and you dont actually live compeletly solo - which is nice.
I would never cause my family and friends to be tramatized and/are thier hearts broken- that may also effects thier own familys and thier lives by something as like you write about. i wouldnt want anyone to half to see physco doctor and be on physc meds because of such.
I will try to understand your longing to be as you once where. I too temporary got stuck in wanting my health and life bk as the way it use to be but then as like you will
come to realize and overcome as i came to realize yesteryears are gone and my illness is just a part of my
life and this is my life now and i make the best of each and every day, even when i dont have physical entergy to complete everything on my daily schedule list.
Heaven and standing beside God is my distination and it is my dermenation that I will do so as God has instructed us to live our lives on earth.
Na deep in your heart, you do not wish to do as you have writen. i feel that you are stuck as i was and either you have not recieve life tools to move forward in your recovery so that you too can enjoy living life and nature beauty or you have now recieved 2nd set of tools from your physco doctor and/are thyp. Life tools to move forward- it is a process.
Do you go to state funded mental healthy center as in center that contains social workers and doctors and where a person is asigned a physco doctor and person visit doctor offc inside mental health center that is actually doctor offc\'s and is not a houseing are mental facility nor soup kitchen that also provides over night houseing - hum? will do you have physco doctor who you can visit on fairly reg bases?
just re read the sentance that follows the 18 beer in your journal. woo wee hope you didnt wet the bed,lol not that i have,lol, nor wet your pants as you reached the tolit,lol, not that i have,lol, dont get up to fast after cup of coff--ee, are you\'ll be blowing smoke,lol
my time release med has kicked bk in so off to recliner i go,my Buddy right