Shattered Dreams

So I went to our home yesterday to check on it, it's been 32 days since my wife left me and things get slightly less hard everyday but the pain is still there, my heart is still aching from the trauma it suffered. While I was home I found one of her journals she liked to scribble in, the very first page had the word "LOVE" on the top and right underneath had my name first, followed by hers, then my stepsons, ending with what would have been our baby's name, if it was a boy "Cruz" and if it was a girl "Sophia". My whole world came tumbling down again and I realized that my dreams had been shattered. I long for someone to call me daddy and to carry on a little piece of me into the future, I feel as if I will disappear out of existence with none of me to carry on my name and my story.