Sex...
Sex,I used to belive that youhad to wait to be married or you would burn in hell but now, all I know is just the feeling of him on top of me and him unzipping my jeans. Heknew what he was doing but I didn't want any of it to happen. He started to lick my vagina and surges of elctricty went though my body but when I kept saying stop he didn't care. He shoved his peins into my mouth and allmost chocked me with it. When he inserted it into my vagina I triedto pull out but then he started to punch me untill I just gave up on trying to stop him. I don't know what else I could have done, I keep gettingtold that it dosen't count as having sex but I count it becuase that night he took away my little girl inocentce and just handed me a big fat life with a whole lot of problems. Now I'm still letting him win by having nightmares of that night every time I close my eyes all I see is his face and him climbing on top of me. I can't shake that feeling anf that is what is killing me from the inside out.
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Im proud of you for sharing that. You are not a dirty young girl. You did nothing wrong. This person that hurt you should be punished for what he did. He is at fault not you. I knew what happened to me was not my fault but the monster that hurt me. Still this day i make him realise even though he is dead now make him feel guilty for what he has done. I had wrote him a letter explaining how i felt for what he has done. I had it mounted in acrylic and had it placed face down at his grave so he can read it every day. Write a letter to this creep and let him know how you feel for what he had done to you and make copies so you can repeat it back to him over and over. You need to get back what belongs to you. And that is who you are inside.
Scott