separate lives 2

we didn't communicate.  both of us wrong.  i assumed that wed b spending the day 2gether as a fam b/c thats what weve been doing.  he had a meeting & zora had a playdate.  his meeting didnt start even close 2 on time.  the norm.  and so of course it didnt end on time.  then hell b off 2 work til midnite.  he tells me he spend enuf time with the children.  as much as i do.  time with me is rarely important. its becoming the same 4 me.  i yearn 4 it but im getting used 2 not having it.  things r going back the way that they were.  not gd.  not gd.  the difference is i will nt suffer in silence...not that i ever did....i will stray.  im trying 2 stray in a gd way.  spending time with friends & projects.  looking 4 a job.  it is natural 2 want affection and romntic love...wel natural 4 me.  i pray tht i can somehow feel satisfaction without adultery.  amen