self responsibility and affirmation

I was feeling oh so bunched into a corner this morning

woke early as usual and made some coffee - got

back into bed and texted a friend who usually wakes at around the same time..

watched some tv and then the day ahead started to feel daunting

like I couldn't be perfect enough in any which way or direction

I regrouped myself and realized I need to be self responsible

and that charge and agency taken up in hand gave me a sense of relief (insight too)

I then realized that part of being self responsible is affirmation,

self affirmation and then too the affirmation of those you love

at home (in my case Blue) and also my friends and family..

I feel like I have more insight and ability to see what I need

as well as what others need as well. I think vanity too may be a sign

of healthy self regard and affirmation too.

I showered and got dressed. Time to clean up around here

and then maybe do some filing. Haircut at 1130a ...woot!