Seems like I will be grieving for my husband forever

It's seems as if I will be grieving for my husband forever.  Do we ever heal?  I have no answers for the question.  Today the crying started in the morning, had a break and am crying still in the afternoon.  I was just sitting in my chair thinking do we grieve forever or will we ever heal from all this.  I won't forget and will always hold Smokey in my heart and mind by the memories.  At least with Smokey I have great memories.  With my ex-husband, he left bad memories.  There must have been good memories in the beginning but not at the end.  With Smokey there were mostly good memories and not very many bad memories.  We had a good relationship and the best ever for the both of us.  We said it to each other.  We both knew.  It is now wonder I miss Smokey so very much.  There might be times I am laughing but in my heart I miss him so much and wish he were here to share in my good experiences.  I hope the crying and grieving won't last forever.  I hope and pray that I heal and keep all the good memories and carry Smokey in my heart.  All the best to everyone who is going thru all this as well.  It has been four months for me and I still cry.