Second meeting

I attended another widow/widower support group meeting, our group seemed to have doubled, had to use the bigger room. Tonights meeting seemed to help me understand a little more of what I am going through, with the anticipation of my first year anniversary coming up.
And helped me understand why I seem to be doing things out of my element. Like I have always been a saver and this year, I seem to have done the opposite. Have been really ashamed and mad at myself for it. But found out it could be part of my grieving process, I guess a form of acting out.
It was also 11 months today since I lost my dear Paul, so it was another good reason to go. I am looking forward to the next meeting on the 17th.