scary thoughts....
Oh wooo, tomorrow is the day...scared and excited. Sometimes my mind wanders and i think about waking up from surgery with Rosanne Barrs boobs from her bad dream(HUMUNGOUS), and thoughts of just not waking up at all, and thoughts of getting a terrible infection that leads to tons of pain lasting a long long time...ugg. I do suppose lots of people have all these thoughts and more prior to surgery. Just gotta hang in there and deal and just relax. Also quit smoking cigarettes June 30,2011. Very proud of myself and others that are doing this too. Not easy but do-able!!!!! Really sux that the other 2 ppl in my household smoke and roll their own cigs. I used to roll for everyone..but told them i could no longer do it, it would just be too hard for me. I moved the ashtrays from my nightstand and from my computer desk...but of course theres still ashtrays all over the house for them. On my 6th day and it is gettin easier but do have flashes of a desire to just light up, and i tell myself "this too shall pass" and just occupy myself with somethin else. Gotta starve this damn monster to death!!! He is no longer welcome in my life(my body).
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