Scary sometimes . . . .

Things are going well, but every now and then I have a bit of a panicky feeling . . . I think it relates to fear of failure, since I had failed with this so many times before.  I'm not intentionally thinking that way, but something just comes over me. My husband said something tonight about being gone for 3 days at the end of the month... I answered with something like - do you think I can stay out of the casinos that long? He said - I sure hope so :]  Well, why would that pop out of me - no reason for it; I don't consciously intend to go there, but thinking about it . . . I guess those were the times when I was most vulnerable (when he was out of town) and most likely to spend the day there.   I want to continue my recovery and I'm really not seriously bothered by urges, just thoughts now and then, but just for today - I WILL NOT GAMBLE!!
Hope everyone is well - take care,
Smokeygirl

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Hi: Can you make some plans with girlfriends or family or something that will occupy your time for those 3 days? You need to set up road blocks. Don\'t just wait for the day to arrive and then say, oh my what will I do now? Stay your course and make plans. Put all cash out of reach. Tie it up where you can\'t get to it even IF the urge hits you. Don\'t be naive thinking it can\'t happen because it will and you need to be ready when you are most vulnerable.Plan 1. Give your cash to your husband to hold while he is away. Plan 2. Have a close friend hold your check books, cash and credit cards for those days. Plan 3. Keep only gift cards or money for a pizza. lol. hugs barb
SheliaMac
SheliaMac

I think sometimes \"old habits\" are hard to break. That was your habit/routine -- when hubby went out of town you went to the casino. Heck... you might have even looked forward to him leaving so you could stay at the casino as long as you wanted - or as long as your money would last-- and not worry about having to explain or being \"caught\". I would think it be natural that the old thinking pop in your head when you hear he\'s going out of town. I think this is classified as \"stinkin thinkin\". But kudo\'s to you... You recognized that thinking for what it is -- stinky and stale. Keep up the great work... And..where are our pictures so we can see how great recovery looks on you?
smokeygirl
smokeygirl

Oh my goodness - - - -I WILL do the pictures - that would be a good task for this weekend. :] I just keep putting it off, but mostly because I have been away almost every single weekend in the last month and a half :] :] it\'s been super busy, but no excuses, I promised them. I will also include the pets (my children)
Thanks you guys for all the support; I will take all of your tips, Barb and you are right, SheliaMac - - though I\'m ashamed to admit it, I HAVE been relieved in the past when he went out of town since there would have to be no explaining or covering up. Boy, that\'s the truth. OUCH

Take care! To another GF weekend,
Smokeygirl