Scary sometimes . . . .

Things are going well, but every now and then I have a bit of a panicky feeling . . . I think it relates to fear of failure, since I had failed with this so many times before.  I'm not intentionally thinking that way, but something just comes over me. My husband said something tonight about being gone for 3 days at the end of the month... I answered with something like - do you think I can stay out of the casinos that long? He said - I sure hope so :]  Well, why would that pop out of me - no reason for it; I don't consciously intend to go there, but thinking about it . . . I guess those were the times when I was most vulnerable (when he was out of town) and most likely to spend the day there.   I want to continue my recovery and I'm really not seriously bothered by urges, just thoughts now and then, but just for today - I WILL NOT GAMBLE!!
Hope everyone is well - take care,
Smokeygirl