Scars For Life
Everyone has scars,some are better at hiding it than others.Everyone has felt pain.Scars dont go away.We hide our scars with tattoos,clothing and cancealer make up.No matter how hard we try to cover up our scars still linger mocking us of a poor choice and self reflection.
We may have scars on the outside but also in our insides in the deepest part of our souls.For some of us we make scars on the outside because of what in our inside.Our insides scream at us and taunt until we see not a light in sight and we scar our selves up,only to make the screaming stop.
Every scar has a story , a distant memory to it.Scars are a reminder and a lesson to each one.Just like pain remindes us that our heart is still beating.Does self harm make me crazy? I dont think so,it only futher proves I'm human and still growing and make poor decisions.I do sometimes feel a bit crazy when im standing in the shower watching were I cut and blood pouring down the drain and I cant decide whether to stop the bleeding or not. But I relkize I am a little un stable but I relize I can get better and I dont have to do this, all I have to do is let myself feel because one day I will heal,I will get better and I will get past all of this.Healing is a choice.I ask you this readers, what step are you willing to take for recovery?whats the right choice?
P.S sorry if the spelling and punctuation is off, im taking loratab and muscle relaxers got in an accident at work.
Annie
We may have scars on the outside but also in our insides in the deepest part of our souls.For some of us we make scars on the outside because of what in our inside.Our insides scream at us and taunt until we see not a light in sight and we scar our selves up,only to make the screaming stop.
Every scar has a story , a distant memory to it.Scars are a reminder and a lesson to each one.Just like pain remindes us that our heart is still beating.Does self harm make me crazy? I dont think so,it only futher proves I'm human and still growing and make poor decisions.I do sometimes feel a bit crazy when im standing in the shower watching were I cut and blood pouring down the drain and I cant decide whether to stop the bleeding or not. But I relkize I am a little un stable but I relize I can get better and I dont have to do this, all I have to do is let myself feel because one day I will heal,I will get better and I will get past all of this.Healing is a choice.I ask you this readers, what step are you willing to take for recovery?whats the right choice?
P.S sorry if the spelling and punctuation is off, im taking loratab and muscle relaxers got in an accident at work.
Annie
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Annie, I cant really comment on this right now as I am not in a good place. I just wanted you to know that I do care and came to read it. Many hugs for you...xo
Very well written & expressed...
I think maybe the right choice in your case is to stop cutting yourself dear. aren\'t there other ways you can make yourself feel?
When I cut too deep I realized that it was not working for me, and that there was a better way of taking out my axieties out another way. So for some reason I have not cut in years or had to hurt myself in self injury for a very long time. I hope you hit your bottom as I did and learn that the only person your hurting is yourself and your partner. I love you girl and hope that things work out really good for you and yours, lots of love Kase
Hey there, I have never struggled with this issue but I want you to know that there is help out there. thank you so much for sharing your thoughts. It was beautifully expressed. hugs and take care. butterflybaby
wow how wonderful you have identified what makes you tick. this is the first step in healig, Knowlege is power and girl, you goit it. I m always amazed at your journals because they are so forthwth and honest. You can do anything you want to and stop feeling a slave to difficulties. Good going- I a both proud to know you and proud of you