Scared Lisa
Last night I was in a dark place. I wanted to cut but knew the consequences if I did. Lisa called me and she got to meet the dark side of me. I scared her. This is what I turn into when I don't get my sleep, or run out of pills. I'm going to make a bunch of phone calls on Tuesday (Monday is a holiday) and see what I can get. I have about a week's worth of essential pills, and then I'm out. I'm trying as hard as I can to get them. I can't stand the clinic... twice they cancelled on me on the day of my appointment. I would have been fine if my doctor was there for my appointment on Thursday, but he didn't show up. I might call and ask if there's a doctor I can see at another clinic to get my meds, or call up some place to get them, but I'm mood swinging and not in a good place. I feel bad that I scared her, but I'm just being myself at that time. I hope all can go back to normal soon.
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maybe you can get them from canada or australia and not deal with doctors that don\'t show up for appointments at all.
hope you feel better. its scary to need meds to survive and not have them. xxoo
I hope all can go back to normal soon too love xx. I\'m sure you\'ll be ok, keep us posted. I have been in that dark place too many a time but i know you are strong and once again you did well not to give into cutting! xx
that is a good idea about calling another clinic, you need those meds to survive and I know you will get them. I am so sorry you are in that dark space but you didn\'t cut and that is huge, be proud of that. I hope you can back to being okay asap. many hugsss
I can\'t believe they would cancel on you. I don\'t understand why the dr. didn\'t show up w/o calling you to reschedule. I hope you are n\'t see this dr anymore. This is very important for you to get your meds. I hope you\'ve gotten this taken care of.