scared...eeeeek

I feel really dizzy right now. This day has gone by so fast- I don't know where it has gone. So much shit has gone on at work today- I can't even think straight. My brain hurts- I feel like crap.
I took my ativan--and now I feel even more loopy. What's going on with me!? eek.
 
I really just want this day to end. I want to go home, lay on my couch and drink a glass of wine. Oh how I love wine. I might not eat but I love my wine :)
 
I'm also really nervous about tomorrow. I have a 6:30pm appointment with my dieitian and then a 7pm appointment with the new therapist right after. I'm neverous about my dietitian because since the last time I saw her I have dropped 4lbs and haven't been eating well...I know I'm going to get in trouble. I haven't sent her my food logs for the past week via email because I don't want to get in trouble. I'm really nervous about seeing this new thereapist. I'm afraid she is going to tell me that I dont need therapy because i'm not skinny enough or sick enough. I don't know where to start. What do I say? Where do I begin? EEEEEEEEEEEEk I'm so scared :(