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just got home from preop tests..i'm so terrified i don't know how people who don't believe in God get thru things like this..He's my strength and hope...cancer surgery scheduled for the 23..still have time to back out but that could be a mistake too...its all in Gods hands anyway..i'm so gratefull for my praying family, friends and friends in daily strength...i don't trust doctors..can't ever tell whats routine for them and whats the real truth...can't stress over it anymore today..God is bigger than all this
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forgot to mention how gratefull i am for my caring daughter and sister..they are blessings..guess some people have to face things like this alone ...i am gratefull on the other hand
Kathy-I\'ve been waiting for you to write about your day-hope it wasn\'t too stressful. You are right tho! You are not alone. I\'ve never realized this, b/c I always talk to you on Christ. Fell., But we are neighbors in NC. I live near Ral.! Small world, huh?? Have a Great Nite!! Luv Ya! MelofNC
Hi Kathy, hope you having a good day my dear friend.
I\'ve never wondered how people can cope with illness or problems without the strenght of our Lord, but your right where do they take the strenght to go on without him in their daily lives.
I know one thing, I have been ill with something or another all my life, and without God\'s strenght my attitude would have been quite different, I imagine.
I never second guess why this and that is happening, he has a reason for everything he does, so I leave it up to him, and do what I can do humanly about it, and leave the rest to him.
We have a lot in common, I don\'t trust doctors either.
Just for example, yesterday I had minor surgery on my left eye, had it done 17 years ago, and it was peanuts, no pain whatsoever, and it only had to be done 17 years later.
So I go into the hospital, not nervous at all, it was a 5 minute thing, so I thought, well guess again, whatever she did, she hurt like hell, and when I took off my eye patch last night, I had a black eye, now how can it have been soo painful that would leave me with a black eye.
I had a very small cyst removed from the outside corner of my eye, like she only had to slit it open just a tine bit, and squirt the fatty white stuff that was in there, like the first time.
But unfortunately it wasn\'t the same doctor, and I do believe she was experimenting on me, I even had 2 stitches, and this morning I can see a little cut way under my eye, nowhere close to the cyst.
I am truly worried about what this doctor attempted to do with me, an experience or what.
And to have stitches, it doesn\'t make sence, like the cyst was approximately one millimeter, no more.
How could she fit 2 stitches into that? Scary.
She is sending the residue, well stuff that was in it, to the pathology department in Ottawa, to make sure it\'s benign.
My next surgery is to get all the other monthly cysts I have been getting since the age of 18 years old.
I have numerist at 8 different places on my body, now that will be painful cause they are big when they do flair up, and that\'s everytime I am about to have my periods, yes it\'s a blood disorder related to the hormones.
But I am not worried cause I have God to turn too, and I\'m positive he will be there for me.
As for you my love, I pray that everything will turn out fine for you.
When and if you feel up to it, one day I would love to hear about you, and your cancer.
What kind and if it\'s advance ect....
Next on my agenda, is my mamogram, I am kinda worried since I have several cysts now, since February of this year, under my breast.
My left breast has a huge hold in it, and I was starting to think about the flesh eating disease, so that worries me, or cancer.
Since doing my chemo treatment for liver damage, I hade 48 weeks of treatment, and I\'m afraid it activated the aging process, and awakened quite a few health issues since.
So it\'s been over 4.5 years now post treatment, that I have been doing a whole inventory of all of my newly health issues, or if you want long lasting side effects, and after the ladies issues, I will do the last of my long list of checking, my Heart.
Then I will have done everything that had to be done in order to see what we could treat, and the ones that are chronic, medicated till the end of my time here on earth.
I feel much better, physically, and mentally, knowing God is with me all the way.
So again, good luck to you on the 23rd, I will definately be there in Spirit right along God.
Love & Respect, Mckenzie
One day at the time.
Praying God\'s peace for you! xoxo