Saturday nights

Saturday nights in used to be so much more fun with you babe. I miss it being freezing outside and snuggling up on the sofa with you, getting wrapped up in a blanket and watching X factor and playing with your hair. I miss us thinking we were the judges,  'well that was crap', 'he needs to go home'. Its so rubbish watching it alone. Its little things like this that make me miss you so much. It really does hurt so much. Its been 18 weeks now since I lost you. Too long without you.i don't know how I'm going to get through Christmas and New Year without you. I hate my life now you're not in it. I remember when I went to Ibiza for 5 days with my friend and when I come back you told me I wasn't allowed to leave you again for that long coz you missed me too much. How do you think it feels 18 weeks not seeing the one you love and knowing they're never coming back. Its so hard babe. It really is.  I miss you more everyday.  Love you always and forever Matt xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx