Saturday Night

Day 3 of 365 - Man Break
Weekends are usually tough for me because those are the nights I associate with dating and being with someone.  Fortunately for me this Saturday night I'm okay with being with me. My son is at a sleepover and my daughter is at the movies with her friend and it's peaceful having some time alone.  I plan to curl up with a movie and relax.  Something I definitely need to do.  I'm okay being with myself.  I enjoy my own company so sometimes I wonder why I am so needy for a man.
Is it society?  Is it pressure from friends and family?  Is it pressure I put on myself?
Being alone is not that hard for me but FEELING alone is different.  I would like to understand where that loneliness inside myself comes from.  Why do I think a man will make it better?  I'm trying to figure out what it is missing within myself that I so want to fill.