Sadness and Anger

I don't know what is wrong with me. I can't stop shaking, damn this lithium. I am over these drugs. I can't take it any more. All I want to do is sleep forever. I have this passion to do so much but for some reason I feel limied to what I can and cannot do. All I want to do now is my homework, I want to get caught up even though it is now going to take me another 2 years to graduate. It makes me sad that, that has to happen, but I will try to make the best of it, because it is out of my hands now. I dont know what is wrong with me. I still feel sad. I dont know what I am here for. I want to go to law school but I am afraid that I wont make it there. I saw a fiend well my old teacher, Ms. McKee, and she used t be in the law school admissions and she told e some secrets of getting in. I am proud of myself. i made it t Gunnison and back. I did panic, but it was taken care of by a Xanax and Wendy's and then I was back on the road. It felt so awkwod there.  I dont know what it was. Maybe I thought of my step mom and step brother as strangers. I didn't sleep much and I felt out of place at best. I dont know how I express this to my father, but I have to some how or it will just dig itself into me. I cant do anything right now. I think that it would be too sensitive for both of us. It just makes me sad. I dont like sadness.