Sad tonight

I'm sitting here watching a Christmas special and have never felt so alone in my life. I hate this. I know I'm not alone, but then again I am more alone than I have ever been in my life. I so miss you Donna, I love you so much. I still can't believe you are gone. My heart aches and I can't quit crying tonight. The past couple of weeks have been better but as Christmas gets closer it seems to get harder. Yesterday was 12 weeks since I saw you last. It seems like a lifetime.