SAD AND DISCOURAGED
FUNNY HOW I CANT SLEEP BUT I NEVER WANT TO GET OUT OF BED...I WOULD LOVE TO JUST LOCK MYSELF IN AND NEVER COME OUT UNTIL SOMEONE PROMISES ME A BETTER LIFE..I KNOW I AM FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF BUT WHO CARES..I FEEL LIKE EVERYTIME I TRY TO PICK MYSELF BACK UP SOMEONE JUST KNOCKS ME DOWN TWICE AS FAR.I HAVE BEEN ACTIVELY TRYING FOR SSD.I HAVE BEEN GOING TO THE SAME SET OF DOCTORS FOR ALMOST FOUR YEARS NOW SINCE MY CAR ACCIDENT.I STILL SUFFER WITH SAME PAIN,BACK,HIPS AND LEGS AND MORE RECENTLY DIAGNOSED WITH SEVERE DEPPRESSION,INSOMNIA,ANXIETEY AND PTSD.WELL, THE ASSHOLE DOCTOR I HAVE SAID HE ISNT FILLING OUT ANYMORE PAPERWORK FOR ME AND HE ISNT DEEMING ME DISABLED.HE NOW SAYS THE PAIN IS ALL IN MY HEAD.JUST TWO MONTHS AGO HE FILLED OUT A PAPER FOR THE LAWYERS ADMITTING I COULD ONLY STAND OR SIT FOR HALF HOUR INTRAVALS AND THE PAIN KEEPS ME FROM WORKING.NOW I HAVE A WHOLE PACKET FROM MY LAWYER AND MY DOCTORS SAYS I AM ON MY OWN... I WANT SO MUCH TO FORGET EVERYTHING AND GO BACK TO WORK AND ACUALLY HAVE MONEY AGAIN TO TAKE CARE OF MY FAMILY.NO MORE BEGGING FOR HELP AND NO MORE STUPID DOCTORS BUT I HAVE TRIED SEVERAL DIFFERENT JOBS SINCE MY ACCIDENT ONLY TO BE IN SO MUCH PAIN I CANNOT FUNCTION....I AM SO STRESSED I JUST CANT STOP CRYING,I FEEL LIKE I AM READY FOR A NERVOUS BREAK DOWN.I HAVE TRIED LOOKING FOR NEW DOCTORS BUT ALL THE ONES THAT ARE HIGHLY RECCOMENDED ARE NOT TAKEING NEW PATIENTS.BESIDES ALL MY SCHEDULED APPTS WITH DOCTORS WHO ARE RUDE AND NO LONGER LISTEN ,MY TWELVE YEAR OLD DAUGHTER HAS SEVERAL DOC APPTS. GETTING HER READY FOR CLEFT LIP SURGERY ON JULY 20TH.THREE OF THE APPTS AND ACUAL SURGERY ARE OUT OF TOWN.IN WHICH I WILL BE DRIVEING AN UNREALIABLE JUNK OF A VEHICLE WITH NOT A PENNY IN MY POCKET...I AM REALLY FALLING APART HERE AND HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO ONE TO CONFIDE IN.....I USED TO BE ABLE TO HANDLE THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD BUT NOT ANYMORE,HELL I CANT EVEN HANDLE TODAY..
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Tammy sweetheart! This is HORRIBLE! OK for starters don\'t cry hon.... Call me instead! The lawyers can FORCE the doctors to fill out the paperwork properly according to what was already signed.... They can make those doctors lives a living hell. Push at the lawyers.... Honey i would go with you if I could.... I am here.....
Life reallt can be unfair sometimes and anyone who tells you different has never had to deal with some of the things we have. I understand, truely I do. We own 2 cars. One is ready to drop any day now and can only be used to drive a few miles and back and even then you never know. The other is one we just got a loan to fix and cost us $1,200 and is now acting up as well. Were we live you have to have a car. My husband works more than a half hour from our house and without a car, he will not have a job. Our water heater just blew also so we have no hot water and no money to buy a new one. I won\'t go any further, just wanted to let you know I understand Somedays it is so hard to just get out of bed. I have also applied for SSD and was denied and am awaiting and appeal which I have been told can take 3 years. All we can do is put one foot in front of the other and try to push forward. I think feeling sorry is okay as long as it is short lived. I always try to tell myslef that somewhere someone has it alot worse. Good luck. (((HUGGS))) Jenn
I read this earlier and didn\'t want to give a lame answer because I really know how hard this is and I want to be here. This morning I was reading a book by T.D. Jakes and it was really helpful. Books on religion can be helpful. We can get a lot of our strength and what we need from the Lord. I hope you will ask the Lord for what you need. I pray that you will be alright and I am really sorry you are going through this. Please know you are not alone and I hope you will be ok with all of this. Hugs.
One thing I read this morning is G-d doesn\'t give you more then you can handle and you will learn things from what you go through and there is a reason G-d puts you in these situations and G-d can give you everything you need to help you get through these tough times. He is always here for you.