sabotage

Why, why, why do I always set myself up to fail? Today I was at my moms house giving my bro a break from caretaking. It's always hard there because they have junk food everywhere. All the stuff I used to eat. Well, I did the unthinkable. I ate a cookie. I'm only 4 weeks out and just started on soft foods. I chewed it really well and ate it slowly, but I was so afraid I was going to dump. I didn't, which is kind of a bad thing because what is going to stop me when I just can't control that urge to eat something that's not good for me? They had dry salami and artisan french bread that I wanted so bad, but I knew that could really do some damage. The only things that make me throw up so far are the protein shakes and my medicine-the things I need.  This is my last chance to get to a somewhat normal weight and have a normal life. This has to work and I need to work it. Well it's done now, so I just need to move on and not let it happen again.