Ryan's Birthday - Andrew's angel Day 3 days ago...

On Ryan's birthday the 8th of August, Erica's friends & Ryan's closest friends had a cookout at the park in our home town. When it gets dark they head down to the ocean where we scattered Ryan's ashes. They light candles and hang out and talk...I stayed home this year and let them do there tradition..I was ok with it this year. I got up in the morning, walked to his picture on the wall, which is perfectly close, face to face, so I can give him a kiss on his lips, and Wished him a happy birthday..I let the day fall into however God wanted it to be, it seem to work for me. I think the trip to Gatlinburg had something to do with my spiritual condition. I felt as though we had our time together up on the smokey mountains.. It was exactally like the name of our Chalet that the 10 of us stayed in, A "Touch of Heaven"... All of us Moms were on this winding road with around 6 Chalets stuck on the sides of the mountains...I had feelings of awe all weekend, not a worry in the world...It felt as though all our children were with us, peaceful & safe, as if they never left us...When I have a feeling of sadness, I remember the feeling of awe, being up in the mountains with our children...I think of Ryan and all the other Moms Children, are all still hanging out up there...I absolutely positively know they are there!!!!!!!!!!!
When Erica came home from celebrating Ryan's Birthday gathering, she walked in the house around 10 pm, before I could say anything she asked me if I remember Ryan & her friend Andrew. Not the Andrew I was thinking, the other Andrew who came over our house to visit us a year ago. I said yah, I remember talking with him, he was in the Airforce over in Iraq. Andrew was in the highest Rank, "a Ranger", which is extreme hard-core, the last to leave Iraq when everyone else has been deployed home. She said a bomb killed him that morning, he blood to death.. We were shocked...We could not believe it, I remember asking him if he was scared being over there.. He said "not at all, I love what I'm doing for our country". I told him I was proud of him..Then he said he was sorry for Ryan's death. They were friends, he'd been over our house with Ryan before..dah dah dah, and all.. Ryan had so many friends over, in and out of our house I couldn't remember who was who..
I had said to Erica, this is when we have to do Gods work, our purpose in life..Helping others through what we have already been through... God works through people, that to me is "God", "Helping others"!!!(working though others)..


I remember not to long ago somebody told Erica that this boy Andrew had died.. She found out later it was not him who died, it was someone else. It was a rumor going around, his sister had told Erica's friend it wasn't her brother Andrew, it was someone else... Erica had thought she dreamt that he died a while ago.. I said are you sure it wasn't that phone call you got from someone that he died back, when??? Erica looked at me wondering... The thing that I was stuned with, Erica said he died the day before Ryan's Birthday... When I read it in the paper yesterday, it said he died on sunday Aug 8th, in the morning....It was on Ryan's birthday, which is another one of those weird Coincidences......WOW HUH!!! SOOOOO SAD...Life just keeps going around... Love & Hugs to all of my sisters at heart...I can really say I love each and everyone of you.. I love you my friends, kelly
 

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Sending my love & prayers to the family of Andrew. We know what they are feeling right now. Hope that all is well with you being it was on Ryan\'s B/D. Love & hugs to you my roomie friend, Connie
ColleenF
ColleenF

My thoughts and prayers are with this soldier\'s family. Colleen
NoraMc
NoraMc

All our prayers for Andrew\'s family, my family salutes him. peace, Nora
deleted_user
deleted_user

I love you and Erica too. My thoughts and prayers for the soldier\'s family. I\'ve heard from other soldiers they aren\'t scard b/c their protecting our country. God Bless each and everyone of them...Pat
deleted_user
deleted_user

I love you too, dear Kelly. You have such a loving spirit. I, too, wish we had been able to visit more at the retreat. I am so sorry for the soldier\'s death. God be with his family and friends. Love to you, dale...brandon\'s mom
KandL
KandL

Kelly, I am so sorry to hear of this brave young man\'s passing. I am going to pray for his family right now. I too believe God works through people. I hope & pray I can honor God & my son with the rest of my life; to help others. Love to you, Linda
deleted_user
deleted_user

Prayers for Andrew\'s family. Sounds like you had a good day on Ryan\'s birthday. I think the retreat was awesome in helping us move forward. It was such a wonderful, magical experience. Loved it. Love and hugs, Beth
lynette22
lynette22

Love, hugs, tears and prayers. Lynette ~ Matthews mom
CorysMom
CorysMom

I am glad that Ryan\'s birthday was a day of peace for you. I know birthdays and well everyday is tough. Tomorrow is my Cory\'s birthday...the first. As for the soldier...so very sad. Hopefully, your purpose now is to reach out to that family to share in what you have learned from your experience. I wish you and Andrew\'s family my love. Peggy
biowoman
biowoman

I can hear the peace in your journal...it is so comforting to know that Ryan\'s birthday was as good as it could be for you....that is encouraging to moms that are not as far along on this journey. I love that you feel lead to help those that are joining us on this journey...we do have purpose. Love to you...Karen
deleted_user
deleted_user

Hugs and prayers for the young mans family and friends,I too hear some peace in your journal,and it is encouraging,hugs to you ,many more days of peaceful thinking.Lisa
Livingjuicy
Livingjuicy

I too sense peace in this journal and as the others mentioned it encourages all of us. So happy to know that Ryan\'s birthday unfolded in the way that it needed to for each of you. It helps me to think about and prepare for Doug\'s on the 17th. Lots of August babies on this site. My oh my what were we up to in November, huh? :) Thank you for being here and for sharing your heart and journey with us dear Kelly. Love and belated birthday hugs for all! Joanie
ihart
ihart

Kelly,
I am so sorry to hear about Andrew. If you are able direct his mom to us in hopes that we can offer some help.
You are so right that it is our duty to pay it forward. I think it is an honor that we are able to help another person so they can move forward and the cycle continues. Hugs, Inga
l8gra
l8gra

Praying for Andrew\'s family and also praying for your continued strength and compassion for others. I was blessed to meet you at the retreat and even though we didn\'t get to spend a lot of time together, the time we did talk was very special to me. Sending love and hugs...Lynn
KimRW
KimRW

Kelly, I am sorry about Andrew. I will say a prayer for his family. I\'m glad that you felt peace through Ryan\'s birthday. You are such a compassionate friend and I felt that the moment I met you at the retreat. Love & Hugs to you! Kim