Rules, humility and reasonability

Jumping off what I mentioned last night

in terms of having a context of others and yet the liberality to go with my feelings.

I guess all gobbledygook aside, today I'm finding that the waterline of interaction like a ruler marking what is acceptable and not, stood before me like a sheer cliff of no permissions.

i realized I have to consciously say to myself or self talk that it is not unreasonable to want something or to question something. Here at church the sacredness really couches me and my tentative feelings about my own permissions. 
I just found reasonabilty today for myself, it was centering and also relief giving. I am not all bad or all good. I want things, I like certain things and all that's fine applying my own sense of judicial scales etc..