Ruby

I wish I could go back a couple of days and get another chance with you Ruby. I would protect you and not let anything happen to you. In hindsight  maybe I should of not let you out at all with such a dangerous road nearby. Looking back I should of been more vigilant. I don't know why you wandered off. There was another cat in area that I was feeding. I hope this isn't what spooked you off. Ruby I am so sorry and I don't know if you felt pain in the last moments of your life without your daddy by your side. Ruby you were so brave you were attacked by a fox early in your life before I found you. You had so much trauma in your life but you had so much love to give. You were friendly to everyone and loved by so many people. You gave me so much love and you really opened up my heart at a stage where I was so closed off and empty before I met you. Ruby I can't bare the thought of going back to that life and living without you. I never had any love growing up but you gave me all the love in the world. People will say your just a cat etc but to me you were the most precious gift in the world and every day and moment with you was precious. I would do anything to get you back. The world is so cruel that it won't let me love you back to life.  I would do anything to go back and I would forget about all of life's little problems and the nonsense because you were all I needed. I love you so much Ruby