Routines.

Its been about day four in having a pretty solid routine. Being isolated and off work has given me the chance to really get into a self care routine. I wake up in the morning -- clean, take vitmans, drink water, journal my feelings, i do either 10 or 20 things im greatful for and 10 or 20 things I like about myself. Then I usually stretch to some music, pick a time im going to go to alannon phone meeting. I usally call my mom after that. She is alone and bored usually so I like to call her and talk for a bit. Today My boyfriend is home and he is going along with me and my routine. I guess in a way so i dont get thrown off it. I dont want to leave today out of the house but it looks like we are going to have to go to walmart to get some groceries cause we are running low. I don't want to leave at all. But if we can just get our shopping done quickly an all at once we wont have to go anywhere else for a while. I do miss my family seeing my mom in person and my neices. I dont know.  This corona virus  is really putting me in a weird place I feel like i am kinda on edge mostly i just i want to see my mom cause i worry about her. She is so lonely. She calles me all the time. I think i got like four missed calls from her yesterday and two today. Its kinda alot and im trying to take care of myself through this process but like when someone you love is in need you want to give them your attention too but its kinda alot too split your attention between yourself, your partner you mom, whatever else. Either way I am still trying to refocus one myself because that is the most important thing i can do. I know this. Sticking to my routines, acknowledging my feelings, refocusing on myself, and mainting my focus on soothing myself despite what is going on around me.