Rough night, how much is too much?
Got home yesterday and couldn't find our little cairn terrier, we have 2 and the little one is my daughters. I drove all over and then it dawned on me. I went back to the house and looked through the bushes in the back yard. She had crawled up in them and went to sleep and died. She was only 11 but she was always kind of sickly as she was the runt. We got her when my daughter was 6 as a new puppy. So my daughter had to experience this again after losing her grandma is July, her grandma paid for both our cairns she was a huge dog lover. I've made some terrible decisions lately on handling things ive found out about my ex and her fling. Screwing up my sobriety, taking prescription meds (anti anxiety) with alcohol just to sleep. Last night after finding Jazzy i did the same.
Today I'm going to try and refocus here. My daughter is beyond upset over her dog. I have got to get my shit together. I blocked my ex from my phone. Talking to her is nothing but pain for me. She wanted to talk after she found out about Jazzy but I said no. She can't comfort me. She only brings pain now. I HAVE to remember that.
Thanks for listening to another chapter of this sad year: 2015 can't arrive soon enough.
Today I'm going to try and refocus here. My daughter is beyond upset over her dog. I have got to get my shit together. I blocked my ex from my phone. Talking to her is nothing but pain for me. She wanted to talk after she found out about Jazzy but I said no. She can't comfort me. She only brings pain now. I HAVE to remember that.
Thanks for listening to another chapter of this sad year: 2015 can't arrive soon enough.
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Sorry for you loss Coop, sorry for the terrible year you\'ve had and I wish you peace and happiness. Sometimes you wonder how much more can we take? It really is about just getting thru the day, just know that we are here for you and feel your pain. It is so hard being the responsible one, isn\'t it. I wish I could just run away from my troubles too, BUT we do have kids so being the responsible one is not an option for us. I agree, 2015 can\'t come soon enough. Hugs~
Yup I know. I derailed a little bit but enough of that shit. Gotta focus on my daughter and my business: one day at a time now and I\'m looking into some AA around my house. Maybe that will help me too. Thanks
Coop so sorry for your loss. this has been a hard year for you and your family but you know what dammit, come hell or high water we are going to have an AMAZING 2015. I listend to a Joyce Meyer sermon and she said that God gives you double for your trouble. Meaning a double blessing. So 2015 is going to be amazing for you.
I am sorry buddy about Jazzy. And I really think you did the best thing to not speak to your ex. You can talk to your children about Jazzy if need . Hang in there buddy and you know we are all here for you. And remember you are going to get double for your trouble ;)
I love that saying, Double for your trouble....whoohoooo, we are going to have an awesome 2015!!!! Our exes????? who cares, not me!!!!
That\'s a great way of looking at things :)
Thanks. :)
Coop, I am so sorry for the loss of your dog and that additional pain this is causing your daughter. :( (I am a huge cairn terrier fan, by the way).
Yes this year needs to end, but I said that about 2013 as well and crap if things are better, and some of that is my own doing.
One day at a time, one next best step at a time...sometimes it is a moment to moment thing for me. Between the ex, the stress, work issues, family drama...and taking care of me. It is damn hard.
Sending you a big hug.
Thanks Amy yeah been a year alright and I do remember saying that about 2013 too lol.
One day at a time I guess at this point is more prudent.
Glad you like cairns, i still have Jake but I think he is getting lonely I was afraid he may be affected too, they grew up together since puppies, they were actually first cousins.
Thanks again Amy I gotta start posting some more positive shit or I\'m gonna end up as a Lifetime Movie of the Week..:)
Hey, what\'s wrong with Lifetime? That is my go to when I\'m down in the dumps or have any spare tv time or plotting revenge...waaaahhhh, evil laugh
Enter a comment I\'m sorry about the loss of you dog! And your right, I myself can\'t wait until 2014 is over, I\'m so looking forward to see what 2015 has to offer. I\'m holding you in my thoughts, and wishing you all the best if you choose the A.A. route. I know some who did A.A. and they succeeded, one being clean for the past 3 years. We\'ll get through all of this, all this carp we deal with can\'t last forever.
Coop I also know someone that had great success with AA. I think that is a great option for you if you decide.
2015 is going to be so Amazing for all of us. ;) We still just gotta get thru 2014, but we are working on that. lol Hang in there C
saved before I was done. Hang in there Coop. And this site is called Dailey Strength so don\'t think you have to be happy when you are not ,you have had a lot happen , this site is to support. You will get thru this :)
Coop, keep your chin up man. Sorry to hear about the relapses. You\'ve been a great source of strength for me lately. Hopefully I can return the favor.
Thanks everyone. On a better path tonight. Been tough but gotta get this done for my daughter. One day at a time now.
Appreciate everyone\'s comments and kind words. We\'ll all get through this one day and finally move on and be happy.
Hey Coop..I\'m sorry about the loss of your pet. I remember right around the time of my ex husband moving out, we had to put my 16 yr old cat down and it was just a year of endings. I remember thinking from the year 2010..next year has GOT to get better..I said that for many years lol. THIS year is finally the year for me. We never know when things will turn around, but you just get through as best as you can
. I think AA is a great idea! You\'ll have support and can go to meetings when you feel tempted..it\'s a little more help to be face to face with people who struggle with the same issues.
I\'m so sorry about your dog. Why do things have to happen in batches like this?? I was raped a year ago and then 2 months later, my dog (who my life absolutely revolved around) died. I was extremely suicidal after that.
It\'s so horrible that all these things are compounded on top of one another. Do you have a sponsor or a counselor or a good friend that you can talk to about all this? Are there friends or family that you can hang out with and try to stay busy as much as possible? I\'m so sorry you\'re going through all this right now. I think it was really strong of you to block the ex. Hopefully that will help. You can survive this. It\'s going to be rough for awhile but you will make it. hugs