Rough night

So I had a rough night last night.  I had that feeling that people were going to break in my house.  It makes me paranoid and unable to sleep until the sun comes up.  I popped a Klonopin finally and it sorta made the feeling go away, not to mention knocked me out.  I don't know why I get that feeling but it made me feel better to know I wasn't the only one out there with that problem. My mom and I are doing a little better now but it is still hard for me to deal with her.  She really hurt my feelings and I  am not really over it. I am still pretty depressed.  I dealt with suicidal thoughts all weekend and those are gone thank goodness but I am still not really wanting to do much but sleep.   My pdoc is finally supportive of me trying for disability though so I'm really excited about that.  Hopefully with that I'll be able to get my own apartment if I need to and take care of myself instead of my mom taking care of me.  We'll see.  I know its a long process but I wanted to have my doctor behind me before I decided to do it.  And since its for a mental illness I'm sure I'll be denied the first time.  Oddly, my Mom is really supportive of this so she will get me a lawyer if and when I'm denied.  So pray for that for me cause I really think it could be a good thing.