Rough day yesterday
Yesterday I dont know why but I had one of my out bursts and it was no fun. My depression got sooo severe and I took my depression medication so i dont understand how that happened. The worst part was thoughts of suicide I never had those thoughts since I was thirteen. I called my counselor and got an emergency appointment the same day which was excellent for me because I did not know what was going on. when i got in the office i broke down in tears as i was talking to her. I was crying the full session and usually i fight back the tears because I hate crying. this is the second time i broke down. As I tried to talk to her through the tears I realized what was going on My mother and I were arguing the day before yesterday. she made me feel like crap. I hate her. I felt alittle bit better after counseling but the thoughts of suicide were still there so I fought back the urges because I promised my counselor I wouldnt do anything to harm or kill myself. Im better today much happier than yesterday. im actually smiling now.
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aww i\'m soo sorry you were having a tough time yesterday. I am happy u are doing better today :), if you need to talk, i am here..
im glad ur fln beta again nw.