Rough Day... :(

Today started off " rough ", and ended " rough ". 

I wish I could have described today in a much more positive note, but there simply wasn't many positive moments in it. 

When I first woke up this morning I felt like a bus had run me over, since I had barely slept thanks to a bad cough, and sore throat. So I woke up feeling like an elephant was sitting on my chest, and he wouldn't move. My chest hurt like it had a huge knife stuck through it every time I tried to take a normal breath. That only went away very slightly as the morning wore on, but it never went away completely throughout the entire day, and evening hours as well. 

Then this evening my good friend Rene sends me a text message asking me to call her, as she has been used to doing for the past month - ( that he was gone ). That wouldn't have been a " problem " at all, except for the fact that Ray and I were watching a movie at that time. It helped that the movie was kind of boring, at least, or it would have caused even more problems than it already did. As it was he only acted mildly irritated that I wanted to call Rene as she asked me to. I was surprised that he didn't go as far as to try to tell me to go to the bedroom to talk to her, as he did the last time a friend of mine called me. I'm hoping that was at least a good sign that he's learning that I have the right to talk to my friends on the phone whenever I want to, no matter what we may be doing at that time. He's got to remember that it's not their fault, or mine, if they call when we're in the middle of doing something together. They don't know that we're watching a movie, or doing " any " other activity together, and he's got to allow for that simple fact.

After the phone call situation was out of the way, then the next thing was " dinner time ". I asked him what he wanted for dinner, and he nearly bit my head off about it as if I should have already known that he wasn't feeling well. He hadn't told me that he wasn't feeling well at all, but apparently I was supposed to have " known " anyway. He snapped at me that he wasn't hungry at all because he had been in the bathroom at least 8 times in the last 2 hours, or so ! 

Did he bother to have some consideration about what I wanted ? Oh heck no ! It was ALL about him, and that was the end of the story, because after he had snapped at me he planted himself in front of the fridge - ( sitting at the dinning room table to work on some art work ). I wouldn't have minded at all about him working on some art work if he had just given me maybe 5 minutes first to throw together something for my dinner, since I DID have an appetite, even if he DIDN'T ! 

Finally after awhile he finished working on his drawing, and I had a chance to make something to eat for dinner. I would have made something for him too, if he had told me that NOW he was actually hungry. But... AGAIN... I guess I was supposed to " read his mind ", and know that his appetite was BACK, since after I fixed my dinner he was in the kitchen fixing himself something for his dinner.

Eating what we had each made for our dinners while watching a movie, was relaxing enough.... but then AGAIN the " fur started flying " ! .... I made the mistake of saying out loud that I needed to get up to take my night meds. He brought my container with my meds in it over to me - putting it on my wheelchair, and pushing my wheelchair close to me while I was sitting up in my recliner chair. Once I was done taking my meds I accidently pushed my wheelchair " too hard " to push it away from my feet, so I had the clearance I needed to get up to go to the bathroom. He automatically assumed that I did that to " piss him off " - as he put it -, and also added that I had tried to " break the bookcase " - which was also UN-TRUE ! But of course when I tried to calmly say that the wheelchair only bumped into the stereo speaker, he then swore that I only said that to " piss him off " ! 

Of course.... EVERYTHING I ever say apparently is to " piss him off "... when he's in a hateful mood like that !!!! 

I HATE IT when he's like that !!!!!!!!!!

This was ONLY DAY FOUR of him being back !!!! ... ONLY DAY FOUR !!!!

So we're off to a " flying start ", so to speak ! Damn !