Roller Coaster-y
In the last month, I have had my heart mended, broken, mended, then broken again and now mended. All by the same insane, beautiful, perfectly crazy woman. I've slept a ton this last week. I think it's because it's the first week in a long time where I haven't either been totally elated or contemplating homicide. Those kind of emotions can really take it out of a person.
I forgot what it was like to be so damn happy, that time flew by. The events that I attend with this girl all appear to be the most magical things I could see. The emotions I experience with her are unreal, and I just wait to see if I will wake up. A simple trip to the grocery store spark emotions that I haven't felt in years. I genuinely admire her.
But I also forgot what it was like to hurt. She'll figure out what she wants, and I know that. I just can't do the "Let's be exclusive; let's date other people; Never mind, I want to be exclusive" dance that we've been doing for a month. I put her in charge though, so I choose to stay on this ride.
My friends say that I should kick her to the curb until she figures out what she wants, but they know nothing about what her and I share. Oh my, I sound like I'm in middle school right now. All I know, is that she is the most amazing, exciting, perfect woman that I have ever had the privilege of knowing.
I will do whatever it takes to make her happy. Even if that means letting her be selfish for a while.
I forgot what it was like to be so damn happy, that time flew by. The events that I attend with this girl all appear to be the most magical things I could see. The emotions I experience with her are unreal, and I just wait to see if I will wake up. A simple trip to the grocery store spark emotions that I haven't felt in years. I genuinely admire her.
But I also forgot what it was like to hurt. She'll figure out what she wants, and I know that. I just can't do the "Let's be exclusive; let's date other people; Never mind, I want to be exclusive" dance that we've been doing for a month. I put her in charge though, so I choose to stay on this ride.
My friends say that I should kick her to the curb until she figures out what she wants, but they know nothing about what her and I share. Oh my, I sound like I'm in middle school right now. All I know, is that she is the most amazing, exciting, perfect woman that I have ever had the privilege of knowing.
I will do whatever it takes to make her happy. Even if that means letting her be selfish for a while.
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