right on track

Ok, started Chantix today. So my quit date is next Wednesday. The limiting of my cig intake is going well with going from 30-35 cigs a day down to 10 cigs a day. To many people that wouldn't sound like much of an accomplishment, especially to non-smokers like my mother who always says "oh, c'mon, how hard can it to be to quit, just don't pick up another cigarette. Easier said than done to smokers such as myself who have been smoking for over 20 years and have conditioned themselves to have a cig to calm themselves or to relax. I guess I always looked at it this way. I have given up most of life's pleasures, drinking, partying, going out to nice dinners, shopping for fun, and anything that would be enjoyable to most people. So smoking was something I always felt was my last bit of freedom to enjoy. But now that I am older, I have finally figured out that like my alcoholism, it is not a freedom......it is something that controls me but makes me think that it is an enjoyment. Right now I am being controlled by a substance that is no bigger than my index finger. It runs my life. How stupid is that? Well, I hope to succeed and I hope that I can keep up this positive attitude especially with my depression. Maybe this is one of the things in my life that makes me depressed in a sub-conscience way and I don't even know it????? Who knows................