Right after.
Ok now I am writing about what's happening now. I can't get rest from my mind. I was prepared to face this. I was prepared to actually feel better. But, that didn't happen.
I feel like shit right now. My mind is racing and screaming at me again. My body hurts everywhere. I can't concentrate on anything. My head hurts so bad right now. I have a weird taste in my mouth. It tatses like bubble gum and cotton candy. I rarely put any of those in my mouth. It's been tasting like that ever since I started taking these pills. I'm very flinchy and twitchy. I feel more paranoid and more afraid of things. Afraid of common things like the sound of people talking and just about any other noise that I can hear.
I feel like cowering in the corner of my room again. My head hurts so bad and my body feels a whole lot worse. I feel like I'm falling apart. Even me just typing is starting to hurt and the sound of me typing is anoying me so much.
I can't fuckin think of anything. I can't think my thoughts anymore. I don't even know if I'm in control of the keyboard because I feel like I'm just looking at it, for real. My mind is racing so much and I just want all of this to end. I try to go to sleep but that doesn't work at all because the loud racing thoughts keep me awake.
I'm starting to forget things more and more. I forget what happens within the last 30 seconds and it's starting to scare me. I barely remember typing the first half of this journal entry. I don't know what's gonna happen. I feel so alone and I feel so scared.
I feel like shit right now. My mind is racing and screaming at me again. My body hurts everywhere. I can't concentrate on anything. My head hurts so bad right now. I have a weird taste in my mouth. It tatses like bubble gum and cotton candy. I rarely put any of those in my mouth. It's been tasting like that ever since I started taking these pills. I'm very flinchy and twitchy. I feel more paranoid and more afraid of things. Afraid of common things like the sound of people talking and just about any other noise that I can hear.
I feel like cowering in the corner of my room again. My head hurts so bad and my body feels a whole lot worse. I feel like I'm falling apart. Even me just typing is starting to hurt and the sound of me typing is anoying me so much.
I can't fuckin think of anything. I can't think my thoughts anymore. I don't even know if I'm in control of the keyboard because I feel like I'm just looking at it, for real. My mind is racing so much and I just want all of this to end. I try to go to sleep but that doesn't work at all because the loud racing thoughts keep me awake.
I'm starting to forget things more and more. I forget what happens within the last 30 seconds and it's starting to scare me. I barely remember typing the first half of this journal entry. I don't know what's gonna happen. I feel so alone and I feel so scared.
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