Results from Fetal Testing

My "band-aid" weekend turned out to be nice, even though I spent 90% of it sad and thinking of my miscarriage and my baby. We met some cool people and hung out with them, and that managed to distract me for a little while. Still, it was nice to get away and a change of scenery. Today I received a phone call from my RE who gave me the results of the fetal testing from the D&C. Turns out it was a genetic abnormality: Trisomy 15. Apparantly this is very common with women who are advanced maternal age, and the fetus usually stops developing around week 6 or 7. RE said there's a 30% chance this or another trisomy abnormality would happen again if I were to get pregnant with my own eggs. He said if we did decide to do IVF again, he would recommend PGD testing or donor eggs. This made me intensely sad to hear, even though none of that comes as a surprise. I am 44 years old and need to face facts here even though its soooo damn painful. I feel so sad thinking my poor little baby was abnormal and never had a chance to develop. I think of how he/she fought so hard but was never meant to be and it rips my heart open. For now, I need to allow myself time to grieve this huge loss and when I am ready, we will figure out our next steps. We do not have the money for anymore IVF, let alone PGD testing or donor eggs, and same with adoption, but I struggle so much with the idea that I will never have anyone call me Mommy. I'm just not sure where to go from here. But again, right now I'm in mourning and just so very sad and so very empty and I need to move past this pain. It sorta feels like the pain will never go away. Where there once was a baby, joy and hope has now been replaced with pain, sadness and emptiness and it feels awful. 
I'm so grateful for you all and I know so many of you understand this all too well. I wish us all peace on our journeys, wherever they may lead. Lots of love to all xoxoxo