resilience

looking upon my life and realizing that im constantly served struggles with a side of chaos. Dealing with the physical and mental abuse from my mother, her friends, my biological father, my step dad, my ex fiance, and bullies from school. Along with the fact ive been raped three times and molested. to top it all off im bisexual and mixed with black and white. Yeah that last part shouldnt affect me because today being mixed and or in the LGBTQ community is common i still struggle. i am both races but can never fit in with either race, then my family doesnt treat me like they used to since i came out. after conquering that i thought my struggles were over but then i lost my aunt, my great grandma, my cousin, my grandma, my best friend, and my kitten. within a 5 year period. its so hard to bounce back after all that, and because of it i struggle with depression and anger every day. ive been clinically diagnosed with depression, Bipolar disorder, PTSD, and ADD. At this point im amazed i havent taken my own life, yes ive made attempts but ive always been stopped. no twenty year old should go through this much pain throughout their life. im only twenty and have been on a journey of someone twice my age..