remembering my 'go to things'

I came home from work. Just kind of contented although very tired.

I got home, cuddled Blue and then ate lunch while watching some Rick Steve's

travel show. I fuddled around and then took a shower and dressed my best

and then decided to get myself a coffee. I'm going through a lot of potential change

right now and so I'm giving myself this extra treat.

Yesterday while at work, the stress was getting to me, strangely, and I had really

bad chest pains. My therapist said "Call your Primary Care Dr." I decided to just let it

pass. It never happened like that before and today when I went back to work I noticed

my heart was feeling intense again- but then I tried to be playful about work - rather than

be so serious about it - and eventually I felt better. Yesterday a coworker gave me a big

hug - and that calmed me down so nicely!

Yesterday I was lenient with myself as well to give myself good things and not deprieve

for the sake of a puritanical pragmatism.

I was going through some intense upset when she and I talked yesterday and she coached

me to try and find and make a list to remind myself of those things that "would calm me down'...

and so they're 'go to things' dangling in the air for me - I know a great thing I love to do is to

go for a walk or 'get little tasks' accomplished - those a great sense of well being for me.

Anyways, I've just gotten my 'to do' list done and so now I am trying to figure out what

are some go to things to bring calm to me as I have some time until my news show comes

on. Blue needs me, thank goodness!