Regret

I am working and all of a sudden I felt like sick to my stomach. And I had caused it from lying. I can't see my kids for 6 more days because of me. I can't blame anyone for this either. I did it so no matter how I feel it is a'll from me and what I did. I hate this feeling knowing I did this all myself.  But this feeling i don't want to feel anymore it's so empty without them. Yesterday was so long.