Really..More?

So...It has now been close to 2 months since our loss of Hunter. It is not getting easier. I feel completely lost! I had to go through emergency surgery because I retained part of Hunter's placenta. They were scared I would get an infection. Went back to our doctor and also found out that I have a blood disorder (My homosyteine level is twice normal) which could have contributed to the blood clot that caused the placental abruption. Now I have to be seen by a hematologist and also a high risk pregancy doctor. If we should try for another baby in the future I will have to be on an injectable blood thinner everyday to try to prevent this from happening again. Although, I feel a little better knowing that we are getting a few answers to why this may have happened...Just feels like things are never going to get better!  Everyday seems like it is something else. I feel like I am absolutely losing my mind!!!!