REALLY bad day....
Please...I need some support, some help, some advice, ANYTHING, today was really bad at work.
It finally happened. A huge fight in the office with the main bitch. Yesterday, my boss was going downstairs to get my metrocard (he pays for my commute). She overheard him, and stopped him from going with some b.s. about business. So I had to wait and got home late because of her. She did it on purpose, it's not my imagination because when she came in this morning she gave me some look, had some stupid ass smirk on her face like she just got over on me. That's when I blew up, telling her she snitches on everyone (she does) and that the 35-40 new employees over 4 years that sat next to her, not one of them lasted. She said they got new jobs. I said well really, then WHY did they get new jobs??? (b.s. they all got fired because of her). I complained to my boss in the past, but he doesn't really believe me because she's been there over 20 years. There is no office manager, and the bitch does whatever she wants in the morning because no one there is watching the place, the boss and other lawyer are in court in the mornings. I DO want to retire this year.
I know all this drama is caused by this 70 year old bitch who has been there so long she thinks she's the Owner. I know I should leave, my time has come, but yet I hang in there. WHY??? I don't understand it, it seems like I'm doing it to myself, I'm torturing myself. WHY DO I STAY????? I want to cry, I don't understand why I'm punishing myself. Who knows, maybe I'll get fired next week when I go in again. I really shouldn't go in, why do I do this to myself!!