Realizing I have too much Stuff
So this whole trying to stay present thing is NOT pleasant. I have realized how much stuff is around me and inside of me. Staying tucked away in my head keeps me from being royally pissed off and frustrated.
Spawn is working again. She seems to like this job. She is the only female and it is a night job so less contact with people. Good for her! I am truly happy for her...I am. But I still can't wait for her to move out. I still feel guilty about that. A messy, filthy hoarder is awful to live with. The gross factor is high.
I am taking a break from cleaning the kitchen. By cleaning I mean I am going through cupboards and getting rid of shit. The clutter is making me crazy. I will probably end up throwing out stuff that I will need in the future. ( I may have a slight bit of hoarder tendencies too....that would be why every quarter or so I toss stuff) I have boxes ready to go.
I think some of the excess stuff I have around me is metaphorically related to the excess stuff inside of me.
Gahh!!! I need to clean out. I am feeling anxious and nervous ...shit...those 2 words mean the same thing huh? Maybe I am feeling double anxious or double nervous.
I want to take pics with my film camera today :-(. I will have to set a time limit on my clean out or I will feel cheated and even more pissy by bedtime.
Spawn is working again. She seems to like this job. She is the only female and it is a night job so less contact with people. Good for her! I am truly happy for her...I am. But I still can't wait for her to move out. I still feel guilty about that. A messy, filthy hoarder is awful to live with. The gross factor is high.
I am taking a break from cleaning the kitchen. By cleaning I mean I am going through cupboards and getting rid of shit. The clutter is making me crazy. I will probably end up throwing out stuff that I will need in the future. ( I may have a slight bit of hoarder tendencies too....that would be why every quarter or so I toss stuff) I have boxes ready to go.
I think some of the excess stuff I have around me is metaphorically related to the excess stuff inside of me.
Gahh!!! I need to clean out. I am feeling anxious and nervous ...shit...those 2 words mean the same thing huh? Maybe I am feeling double anxious or double nervous.
I want to take pics with my film camera today :-(. I will have to set a time limit on my clean out or I will feel cheated and even more pissy by bedtime.
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