Random update

I've doing ok most of the time. I still have some depression over missing Shannon but as a friend now. I'm not missing her as a girlfriend anymore. I have bad dreams about her sometimes but I'm told this is normal. I have had a hard time adjusting to having friends and a girlfriend it has been rough but i see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know now I need both to be happy. I'll keep working
On this. I'm having a hard time being outgoing to others now that I have a girlfriend it feels like I'm cheating if I'm nice this is a past issue I need to fix so I'm making myself be nicer to others.