ramblings about my time running out, and pros & cons. plus, he still lives with his parents.

it bothers me he lives with his parents. only because i don't know yet if he's serious about moving out soon. and because i hardly know him at all, and with the lack of opportunity to see each other, this relationship is really stagnant right now. it's really depressing, and it's driving me crazy.
i considered starting to keep a list/keep track of pros & cons of being with him. it's about that time, i think....
i mean, i'm 35, i want to find the man i'm going to marry.. i WANT to be married!!! but i know this will take time, not only with 1 finding a guy but also 2 having enough time & opportunity to get to know him, to see if he's the real deal and then 3 of course, planning the wedding, our housing situation, our future together, etc, etc. years. this will all take years, and i almost feel like i'm running out of those.
and with nick now, i just need to get to know him. dammit, to be continued, i gotta go to work