ramblings

Every time things get good, I start to feel it coming back....it's hard living without the symptoms of depression coming back. Even now, I'm doing good, but I can feel the depression trying to seep in......I don't really feel like fighting it though, however, I've grown accustomed to keeping the depression away, so no matter how the symptoms start creeping up, I usually don't fall completely into depression, if at all. Over all, looking over my life, things are good. I shouldn't have complaints. I'm better.........but why am I not satisfied? I feel something missing.....is it me? Am I missing a part of me? I'm finally coming out of my shell more, but there's a me that I still will never see again, and is that part of me what's missing? Idk........oh well, gotta go help set up the iced coffee at the academic building across the streets (I'm in the fine arts building)....then it's off to Counseling at 9:00....yippee hooray (sarcastic "yay")........I'm happy, but right now, I don't care about anything and don't feel like doing anything....and I think I'm a little irritated............but I know it's probably just depression symptoms trying to creep up :< Anywho, later!