Rain

It's been raining almost all week and the pain gets worse the more it rains. It is 5 am in the morning and my neck and left arm are burning and throbbing with pain. I do not get as swollen now but the pain does not want to leave. I hate waking up in the middle of the night to apply ice packs because I can't go to sleep due to the pain. It is definitely not as bad as it was before the surgery but it is still here. The past 3 weeks have been hard because of all we have had to deal with emotionally, they have also been exhausting and my body can't get over it. I ache so bad that sometimes I walk worse than Mrs. Balcolm who is 82 and recently had hip surgery because if a bad fall. Am I ever going to be painfree again? Why is this happening to me? Why did my daddy have to die like that? These are questions no one has been able to answer me and I can't feel but lost. Ever since the incident I spend mote time crying than ever before. I just want all the pain to end already and to be able to enjoy time with my boys like I used to.