Quick update
Hey There. I have been offline with phone co. Someone dug up wires, they could not find them, took time to do something, and etc... Then, I got my stress / echo and the high blood pressure is coming from a possible blockage in the front part of the heart. I will have a cath in two days. Maybe stent / angioplaste (spelling??). Also kidney and carotid work up. All this and a new job by the end of this month. I will be having chill time by the end of the week. Right now, I am busy getting things ready for that time. People are here helping me organize and etc. My partner has a mass in her chest. It seems to be an AVM. They do nothing about them unless they grow or something like this. We go tomorrow for more evaluation. Wow. A lot going on at once. And I have to tell you.. I have really blown a fuse. Mad. Yelling. More mad. Not like me but can be my potential. Not sure if the heart problem can cause this. I know it can cause frustration and this builds stress. I will be glad to come see my DS friends after all of this. There is something so cool about being free to be myself and share the things I do not say to others. Thanks for this release. Hope all have a nice 4th. See you then or shortly thereafter. Cheers~~
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A, I\'m sorry youve got so much stress! I will surely say prayers for your and your testing procedures!! I\'m hopeful all will turn out ok. Also that your partner is Ok! I worry about you being up to a new job by months end?! Do you think your anger is more frustration at feeling powerless with all these health challenges and no control over them? I forget, but do you take anything for anxiety? yesterday, my pdoc talked more about anxiety to me than my depression. which Ive been deeper again for months. Anxiety leads us to the depression more and kinda blocks our logical sided selves to calm ourselves. does it make sense? well a little! anyway, please take deep breathes....see if you can benefit from some anti-anxiety natural kind (like calms or rescue remedy)or reg. meds script from dr. otherwise. please dont try and be too tough sweetie, al the blow ups cause stress and anxiety more and effect your health more! (((((Gentlehugs)))) be kind to yourself, you are only human ok?! love, light, &blessings, Jess