Questions...

How much of who I am is control? How much is  fear? How much is shyness? How much is disinterest? I need to know these things.....I can't bury who I am and just "live life" (whatever happens, happens). I need to know about me, and I need to be my best. This is the only way I can help otters........this is the only way I can be who I was born to be.......this is the only way...but how do I attain the understanding of who I really am?