Dont ever get on anything addictive.Do research on it.Weigh it very carefully,because it will be the worst kind of hell you can imagine in this life.No joke.Before you ever take anything addictive count your blessing man!
I went though hell last night.I had been sleeping to much,so i only slept for three hours the other night and it made me almost lose my mind.I\'ve heard people that are perfectly sane have gone insane dealing with christianity.Am i going to hell or heaven?I\'ve been wanting to die lately.I wake up from my sleep from what i think is heart palpulations,but it could be any health issue with my weight,the medication,and my mental illness.I just am barely awake enough to be concious of the weird feelings i have and hoping and welcoming that it is some kind of heart attack or brain embulism.I am hoping it will kill me then.It is the same way with my smoking ciggerettes,and riding the motorcycle.Last night in the mist of my own personal hell,I heard god say\"Staighten Up Little Soldier\'.All my fears of condemnation and hell went away.I realized it is just life,a bloody war,and you\'ve got to keep going no matter what!
I realized again,really just retrospective on something i already knew,I am stuck here in this place of not being able to hold down a job.What else is there to do if you don\'t work.How do you feel like a real person?So,im stuck here with disability of 8000$ per year and i cant seem to get the hang of living of that little bit every month.Lately i\'ve been trying to think about hard reality.What is to keep me from ending up on the street?Without being able to find the600$ a month on the stupid medication i go insane without.I never feel free except when i\'m able to accept my lot in life,and it is a hard lot.
I was reading a book called :A Million little pieces:it is about a addict,to pretty much everything,and his account of spending six weeks in a treatment center.A quote from the book\"Life is hard kid,you gotta be harder.You got to take it on,and fight for it,and be a fking man about how you live it.If your to much a pusc to do that then you might already be dead.
So,i have a very helpfull book for people with mental illness.It is called Pyhco Cybernetics.It is the difference between hell and heaven with me.It is a detailed book about how are minds really work.Good luck!
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Dont ever get on anything addictive.Do research on it.Weigh it very carefully,because it will be the worst kind of hell you can imagine in this life.No joke.Before you ever take anything addictive count your blessing man!
I went though hell last night.I had been sleeping to much,so i only slept for three hours the other night and it made me almost lose my mind.I\'ve heard people that are perfectly sane have gone insane dealing with christianity.Am i going to hell or heaven?I\'ve been wanting to die lately.I wake up from my sleep from what i think is heart palpulations,but it could be any health issue with my weight,the medication,and my mental illness.I just am barely awake enough to be concious of the weird feelings i have and hoping and welcoming that it is some kind of heart attack or brain embulism.I am hoping it will kill me then.It is the same way with my smoking ciggerettes,and riding the motorcycle.Last night in the mist of my own personal hell,I heard god say\"Staighten Up Little Soldier\'.All my fears of condemnation and hell went away.I realized it is just life,a bloody war,and you\'ve got to keep going no matter what!
I realized again,really just retrospective on something i already knew,I am stuck here in this place of not being able to hold down a job.What else is there to do if you don\'t work.How do you feel like a real person?So,im stuck here with disability of 8000$ per year and i cant seem to get the hang of living of that little bit every month.Lately i\'ve been trying to think about hard reality.What is to keep me from ending up on the street?Without being able to find the600$ a month on the stupid medication i go insane without.I never feel free except when i\'m able to accept my lot in life,and it is a hard lot.
Sorry some of this stuff is so deppresing.I\'m not trying to make anybody deppressed.It\'s just real.
I feel like the bubble is going to burst.Just hold on.
I was reading a book called :A Million little pieces:it is about a addict,to pretty much everything,and his account of spending six weeks in a treatment center.A quote from the book\"Life is hard kid,you gotta be harder.You got to take it on,and fight for it,and be a fking man about how you live it.If your to much a pusc to do that then you might already be dead.
So,i have a very helpfull book for people with mental illness.It is called Pyhco Cybernetics.It is the difference between hell and heaven with me.It is a detailed book about how are minds really work.Good luck!
Does anyone else have any knowledge of Latuda.I am schelude to start it next week?
THE SECRET OF LIFE MIGHT BE TO HANG AROUND UNTIL YOU GET USED TO IT.