PUSH

I watch so many hide from their emotions, their fears, their worst nightmare.....not me, not anymore. When I must fight, I fight....when I lose, I wait for the next round, but with acceptance.I finally accept that I will and can never be perfect. I ponder over who I am and what I want now. Sometimes this reflection is not so quiet....I want to be the woman that I was created to be. Even if she is not perfect. Even if she has had a long and difficult path. And finally, I can bask in silence, not needing another, just me and the One that knows all. Ok, sometimes, I do need music...LOL...I don't have to hate anyone. That use to give me the fuel to keep pushing. Now, i'd rather not catch on fire...I miss my son....this site helps me to release that and feel justified to do so. And, it's not wrong or weak to want him still....it's natural.My marriage may not make it, but I will be more submissive...in a good way! Not to him or to others, but to fate. And, if i lose him, I will push on, as we all must. And surely I will let all of you know my travels!P- PrayU-UntilS-SomethingH-Happens

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Idahomom
Idahomom

Lindsey, You are such a wonderful woman and it is so nice to see you are finding some peace. You are moving forward! In moving forward you are building the life you want and need. Levi will always be with you and it is so natural for you to want him. You are a strong person I see so much more strength in you. For you and your family I know you will keep moving! LYL Tonya