pursuit for ever betterment
I am starting to see that the pursuit for ever betterment
of my growth is also a kind of folly if I take it in the wrong direction.
I know that sometimes it is a vanity thing for me - and
I know now that my pursuit is a dynamic-
Of doing a good job - of being a good parent to my cat
of doing a good job at my responsibilities, of being a good friend and family member
not something 'perfect' that doesn't permit foibles and mistakes -
part of being a good father to my cat - friend and family member
is rolling with the life punches:)
and not so much as fulfilling some definition or perfecting
but a dynamic.
I am driving a rectory lodger to his appointment today -
I have to admit I am so excited about going off campus. :)
hehe
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the whole process of self examination today - as I tried to deal with my mood swings
and the roiling energy that pushes against me when I am alone - (that pushes outward when I am with others)
just kind of taunted me today - telling me that I was 'not just quite right' - I resolved the above entry-
to just deal with the evolution and changing nature of my insides - which are always searching for some other
truth.
this last reply is not helpful - i need to look at what work I need to get done now around here.
I need to just keep managing. day to day - keep on keeping on.
Maybe when you and your lodge are out and about today you can go out for coffee or lunch?
Thanks Jan! Good idea! Xxoo